memories from the past

kadang2 memori boleh datang macam tu je kan?

i'm not sure why,
maybe because of the finals i guess, these memories keep on coming back.hah.


oh this one was during 2004. location star ipoh. heh nak jugak ckp skolah.

blok academik star yg gile vintage 60's style tu diah....

masa tu after end of year exam. tp i still have oral exam utk french. so, hari tu mmg ckp perancis satu hari hah tipoo giler. but hampeh, last2 ckp ntah pape depan examiner orng puteh tuh. well at least rasa fuhh lega sbb examiner tuh angguk2 tanda faham lepas bebel2 pasal "err...pepsi..coca-cola.."

padahal pepsi/coca-cola bukan french pon.
last2 pass gk weyh. dah la tyme tu xramai yg pass..heh bongkak gile.

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Ok this is not the MAIN story. this one is just intro, just to show how happy i was at that moment, not knowing what came after that.....

lepas oral tuh, i went back to class. prep petang dah habes so xde siapa dlm kelas except a few. i look at my desk and i saw bad news...

my periksa-ujung-tahun ADD MATHS punyer markah. damn.

i FAILED.

39/100.
40 passing marks.

*start cerita sedeyh/emo serius sket je

masa tuh, mmg sangat2 sedeyh and i end up crying. :0

masa tuh tinggal kawan yg sebelah meja je dlm kelas.
and he saw me.
he didnt even say a word, simply at loss masa tuh.
budak lelaki, mana reti nak comfort2 membe, x macho lah kan..

but he stayed. he just sat there waiting until i calm down. sampai bila2 aku x lupe my friend.TQ for staying

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i cried that day simply because i was tired of getting failed for that stupid subject. i failed a couple times before that already. i felt like a loser .
owh and i still remembered how hard i tried to NOT fail again for that final exam...

and yet, seeing 39 felt like being slapped on the face.
real hard.
again.

its like conforming the fact that no matter how hard i tried, i will never pass my addmath paper...

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but Allah knows better.

in the end. i did got 40. pity mark from cikgu. and because of that one mark,first time i dapat masuk kelas 1st masa form 5. and things started to turn around.

i might not be one of the A's students, but at least being with clever people and being taught by the best teachers in school, at least i always pass my papers.

especially addmath. alhamdulillah.

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and because of that 39 turned 40 mark,

i am here
in utp
studying engineering

ironic
because i still hates maths

tapi takpe
keep on going zaem


because Allah knows better ;)